"I’m not saying that what you did was wrong. It’s just that you haven’t been giving him enough ‘room to breath’. Everyone needs to be given some space," - Robyn to Cecelia (taken from story written by Eug) -

Konichiwa mina san. Ah, today life's more different. Had a talk with two of me friends yesterday. Well, one was the cause of my anger and the other was another classmate of mine. The anger-causer and I sorta sort things out. Everything seems fine now although it'll be slightly awkward. Well, I guess we can only let time tell.

Phew. The other friend also gave me some advice. Although I have to say personally not all of it can be applied but at least I'm happy there's someone who listened to how I was brought up, which pretty much explained why my attitude may be this way. Hopefully now, there'll be more understanding between me and my friends with this new information.

Life's so hard ain't it? Sigh.

Well, the day today was quite okay. Well, maybe not okay. I'd say good, save for the figures part. We had two sessions of figures. Two sessions!!! Argh! Well, first session was in class. We had a test. I only managed to draw out the four main characters and left out the background characters. What can I say? Guess I still need time to upgrade my standard of speed. I asked me lecturer and he said I'm quite okay and that I can pass. Phew! Can't say much for Sunny though. Leo wasn't happy with his record.

Oh, and speaking of Sunny I've received disturbing news concerning Pump It Up! It seems that the creators of Dance Dance Revolution (DDR) aka Konami had sued both Andamiro (Pump It Up company) and Amuse-World (EZ2DJ and EZ2Dancer company) (wonder if it's spelled correctly) in 2001. This resulted in Amuse-World going backcrupt (then again, who wouldn't with a sue of 12 billion!). Andamiro also got hit but thankfully is still in business so expect further mixes for Pump It Up! to come out. EZ2DJ and EZ2Dancer on the other hand...won't be seeing further mixes. Damn Konami!

Why they sued? Because Konami claimed that Amuse-World and Andamiro copied their design. Yeah, like the speakers and neon-lights can be counted as copying Konami's design. Geez. I mean, Pump is different from DDR. DDR = 4 button pads. Pump = 5 button pads. And EZ2DJ and EZ2Dancer r totally different! Argh!

Pant. Pant. Anyways...never mind. No use thinking about it.

Back to my day. The second session of figures was held in Sunway Lagoon! Yup! That means asking the few of the fellow swimmers there to pose. Or just plain pick a target and try to draw it moving. Not easy I tell you. Managed to get a Middle East woman to pose. Not bad looking I tell you. And her baby daughter is really cute! All the girls were going "Aww!!! So cute!!!" Hontoni kawaii desu!

After the second session went to play Pump! (by the way, played Pump! before going to Lagoon!). Met a pro there who me and my usual gang of Pumpers know. Taught me how to do the 7 stand. And I did it! Yes! Ha ha! I did the breakdancing move that I've always dreamed of doing! But still need more practice though. My timing tak tepat. Ganbatte Eug-kun!

After that sent me friends home then picked me sis from tuition. Came home and practiced the 7 stand a few more times (7th Heaven! 7th Heaven!) then typed this blog out. Spoke a little to me friend in ICQ along the way.

Anyways, me blog ends here. Ja ne mina san! Ma-tay! Arigato Sly-kun / Karasu-kun / Momochi-kun for the advice!

Ne-ways, ja ne!

"A majority of people these days are really good actors. They act for the sake of pleasing ones heart and ears. But none truly cares how you feel. Words are a powerful tool and it is with this tool that they use to cover one's eyes. None of them are for real. Liars!" - Eug (angered) -

Konichiwa mina san. I'm really feeling angry and vexxed right now. It's strange how one's mood can change by the power of words. Well, I'll start from the beggining first.

Today I had a test for my English Communication Skills. It wasn't that hard, although I have to say that the marking system should be revised and the usage of words more wide. English is a rich language and there are so many words that can be used to make a sentence sound from casual to something out of a fairy tale. Well, unfortunately me lecturer decided to use his English of 'narrow' proportions, resulting in a lot of arguable questions.

Anyways, I guess there's nothing much to say since after all he's the one who's marking the paper. And he's also quite an okay lecturer so I didn't want to start a war or something. After class went straight to lunch, followed by Pump It Up!

A friend mentioned something about the 'main' group. It's strange how it feels to be away from the 'main' group. I feel that there's more freedom to do things compared to when I was in the 'main' group. In the 'main' group I felt like I was in a cage where everyone didn't care. They just locked you up and throw away the keys. I was a minority of a voice, a voice so tiny it can be ignored. When I was away from the 'main' group I somehow felt accepted. I could do things that I wanted to do. And I could actually say things where people would turn their heads and listen instead of turn their backs and ignore you. Being left out isn't the easiest things to cope with, not after the incident months back. The emptiness is still within me and even though I don't show it I feel it. That's why my Design lecturer Denise is such a remarkable person. She sees this unlike many other people. I guess it's because we're both alike in some crucial ways.

Anyways, after lunch went for a session of Pump It Up! It was great. Played two games and the best part was that I didn't have to wait long cos there weren't many people. You wouldn't believe how frustrating it is to wait, especially for Pump! I still have to upgrade my standard for "We Are" by Deux. Song rocks but moves are hard.

After that, sent my friends home and then went to my own home. Popped in front of the computer. Now, this is where the anger starts flowing in. Started reading stuff on the Net and I felt the fire start to burn. Yet again the past hit me. I was so furious and I still am right now as I sit here writing this blog. Only a few people know what I'm talking about.

Okay, let me give you a clue. Say you have a friend who decided to do a project with you. That friend tells you all these great things that the both of you are going to do together in such a way that he or she really means it. The next thing you know, that friend forgets about you and does the thing by him or herself without you knowing it. That friend totally forgets what he said to you and does things that only he or she wants to do. Sound familiar? Ring any bells? And worse of all, that friend can tell you things straight in the face, make promises with you in front of other witnesses and yet break them again! As if that friend cared how you felt. Only that friend cared about his or herself. LIAR!

This is where I state that words are powerful tools. Saying promises that are later broken. There's no justice! Hey friend who breaks your word and promises! You ain't done nothing but talk only! Screw you bloody -Censored-! I don't care what people think. I'm already sick and tired of people treating me like dirt and pushing me around and making fun of me and using me. I don't need another LIAR!

Breath in. Breath out. Breath in. Breath out. There's no justice that I can seek. It's already too late. The damage has been done. I'm left to bleed, my willpower withered and soul tattered. There're many more things that I would like to say but if I do, I'd hurt people's feelings. Ka-pish? Pathetic liar.

I've been feeling empty these days. A 'place' where I could go to was no longer there. Tainted by lies and deceit. I thought I could open up whenever I'm in this 'place'. No more. I felt the very same things as what the 'main' group left behind. I felt left out.

"Blood drips from an open wound in my chest. I looked up and winced as my torn wings hurt. I've lost this battle, betrayed by the people I trust the most. But I shall go on. I must go on. Never again, to believe in words of people that just talk...but don't do. I will not, must not fall into the traps of a liar." - Adenol (walking towards the ray of light called Truth And Realisation) -

"Face life as it is. Whatever happened to you is something that no one wants. But it helps you mature faster than the others." - Eug (modified from original advice given by Design lecturer of 1st year 2nd term Denise) -

Today woke up late (as always for any weekend morning). Decided not to wear my cap and style my hair instead. I then asked me lil sis how my hair was. She said my hairstyle was like one of the Flame (a J-Pop group) singer's hairstyle. She also stated that I looked a lil if not much like one of the Flame singer. Oh yeah! ^_^

Anyways, went out to eat a vegetarian lunch. After that visited two pet shops to see doggies. Me dad and lil sis were going "Aww! So cute!". My theory states that at the rate these two family members of mine are going, it's a matter of time before I have a puppy running around in my house.

After the visit I was supposed to go back home. Being the 'nice' and 'caring' father that my father is he dragged the whole family to watch a movie. Me and me bro were supposed to be at home doing work. Dad said he'd stop by 1-Utama to get the tickets. I specifically told him that I had work to do. He went out and came back with tickets of Tomb Raider : The Cradle Of Life for everyone of us! I was like what the F**K!!! I had work to do!

Anyways, the only thing that could've cheered me up was seeing Angelina Jolie's face. Well, that was good if you considered the view of being three rows from the freaking huge screen! Memo to myself, must watch Tomb Raider again from the rows in the middle or back! Dang it man!

To top it off I have a bad ulcer in me mouth (wonder how that got there). Sigh. Anyways, didn't have time after the movie to do any work. Went straight to dinner after movie then came back and touched the PS2. Note: I do things when I have the mood and frankly speaking, I lost it today.

Anyways, I guess the day wasn't THAT bad. Sigh...lotsa work hovering above me head. And the holiday mood is starting to creep into my brain. No!

He he. Life has been tough these few months. Been talking to my Design lecturer. She's a really good counsellor behind those tiger-skin and dragon-scales. Life...an enigma that is fathoms deep and scars the very soul, the very essence of my existance.

Anyways, I'll end me entry here for today. Ja ne mina san!

Hi. Jes started creatin this blog. Guess I felt really tempted s well 2 start a blog. I'll try 2 update it s much s possible!