"Pain, one of the unique qualities of being a mortal." - Eug -

Konichiwa mina san! Today is a day where I experience pain, physical pain. Ouch.

Woke up today at the usual time, aka near noon. Got ready and updated my blog before going down to Setapak to eat curry fish head. It was good. ^_^ Yummy!

After that went to Rampus's house to pick him up but he couldn't come so I went off straight towards Pyramid. Played Pump and met Daniel and Daniel (yup, there are two Daniels). My 'We Are' by Deux has improved! I got a B! Yes!

After playing Pump went to Sunny's. This was when I realised something that resulted from Pump. Me legs were aching! Argh! The torture! I think I can't play Pump for a couple of days. No!!! :(

Well, at about 7 something went to eat dinner with Beano, Jimmy and Sunny at Summit. Let me tell how hard it is to make up one's mind at what to eat. In the end we ate at this place (what was the name again?). I ordered this SIZZLING Thai Beef and when it came I could only say one thing. It wasn't sizzling.

Sunny denied and told me if I squinted my eyes carefully enough I could see small bubbles popping at one corner of the sizzling plate. He was right. Small bubble that went Pip! instead of Pop! Oh well, at least it tasted quite good...and HOT! By the end of my dinner I was red in the face and dripping with sweat.

After dinner played some arcade games. Then sent both Beano home and Jimmy to the train station. I then came home and started to type away on me blog.

Well, my entry ends here today. Ja ne!

"I stood, thinking back. I could still remember the first day I came into campus. The day I first met my classmates. It was still so clear although there were small details that were missing. Still, it only seemed like yesterday." - Eug -

Konichiwa mina san! This be yesterday's entry actually since I couldn't get excess to the com. Yesterday's morning was an eventful one, adorned with mixtures of emotions. It also gave me inspirations for several quotes. Some of them are rather harsh so please read it openly, consider its meaning and gomen for any hard feelings.

Woke up early cos I had to send me bro's friend to a school in BU for canteen day. After that went home and we set off to Nilai Memorial Park to pray for me mom. Being there I felt peace and pain and the same time. Both me sis and me dad shed tears while I kept my own within my heart. I didn't know how my brother felt though for he too didn't cry.

As we left the park my sis mentioned about how fast so many months have passed. Me and me bro both agreed. Time flew faster than one could imagine. More than 6 months have passed already. Whoa. Soon I'll be in 1st year 3rd term.

"Time waits for no man." - famous saying -

"Time is a river that continues to flow. A river where no dam can stop it." - Eug -

"I could still remember mother. How she sat on the hospital bed. I could still remember talking to her, hearing her voice, seeing her weak smile...hugging her goodbye. It was all so clear yet this was one memory where clarity was something I did not ever want. I wanted it to be erased but I can't. So many ghosts of the past haunted me. I remember what she would use to do whenever I was driving, whenever I was at home, whenever I did something. I could still feel her, could still see her using the eye of my mind. The pain, the torture, the torment..." - Eug -

"People said I've changed. I guess time has the power to do so. Some complain about the change within me. I don't blame them. A human mind is so frail, so frail that I laugh at my own existence. Humans are so intelligent, yet we can crumble so easily. But there is something that I must say. Those who complain so much never had a huge chasm left inside their heart did they? And those who do have them had time to get over it. I still need more time. So quit with the complaints already. You don't know how it feels like till something so important in your life goes. Try it. You won't like it." - Eug -

"The longer you know someone, the more you understand that person and how deep their mindset is. Understanding is always important before making judgement. Thus, don't judge a book by his cover. Understand him or her before you judge that person." - Eug -

"I am like my mother. She kept her problems to herself and only spoke of some of them to me and people she could open up to and trust and took the time to understand how she felt. It is hard to have this trait. So many secrets of the heart within my soul that no one would understand. No one who would take the time to understand and stop complaining so much." - Eug -

"Nobody wants to share your sorrow. A person who actually takes the liberty of doing so and cries for you as well is a true friend." - a famous chain letter saying -

"At tough times like these, one can then distinguish between true friends, friends and enemies." - famous words from adults -

"Friends come and friends go. That's why blood is always thicker than water." - a gentle voice from a gentle person -

"I'm still in search of people who'd listen and understand. So far, there are a few. Family, lecturers, some friends and an angel that I haven't yet found. For those who do listen, thank you very much. I appreciate it a lot from the depth of my heart." - Eug -

Well, once again I say gomen if there're any hard feelings.

Anyways, the rest of the day went by like normal. Nothing else happened except for the fact that I went to Joseph's place to play some GGX2 and borrowed anime from him.

Beano! Thanks for the videos. Watching the trio dance Caution gave me a boost of energy and inspiration! We must do collab-dance soon! Right now practicing some moves! Also, I've got unfortunate news. It seems the room in my house where the com is has very little space thus resulting in poor practice conditions. So, I'll go to your place for practice! ^_^ He he. Just joking. Please tell me whether we want to do collab and if so, when to have dancing pratice! Ken Woo! You're welcomed to join as well. Anyone else can join too if interested. Please tell!

Well, me entry ends here for today (puts down the philosopher's spectacles and lets out a sigh of relief). Ja ne!

"Life is a cycle. What start must end. What goes up must come down. Where there's light there's shadow or darkness. Where there's a beginning, there's an end." - Eug -

Konichiwa mina san! Today is a day I rejoice, for the long project has finally come to an end.

The morning till afternoon was the same as usual. After having my lunch, I sat in front of the com and started typing away the last chapter of my story. At about 2 to 3 I finally finished it. Yes! Now all I need to do is recheck it and make any last minute alterations wherever needed and it would be completely finished.

After my typing I decided I needed to celebrate. So I went to Pyramid myself (cos I couldn't get Jimmy or Beano) to play Pump and get the 4th book of the cute-girl comic that I love so much. As Bean said, I be a sucker for cute girls.

Met Vance there and we played some games. After that took a drive around (cos me dad called up last minute telling me I didn't have to pick me sis up). The traffic jam near Mid Valley sucked! Half the mood was gone but I regained it back as I managed to free myself from the jam.

Came home and dad called telling me his car got problems (what can I say? He always treats technology badly) and he needed my car. NO!!! CRAP!!! I was so furious and worried. My baby was going to be handled by the hands of a beast! Argh!

No offence but when it came to technology stuff (aka cellphones, computers, cars etc.) I don't want dad's hands anywhere near them! He messes those things up, things that I love. I like tech stuff. I'm always amazed by it. (Tears start to roll down at thought of what dad would do to me car...)

Had dinner while watching Fruits Basket. Also watched Taken. Man, it gets more interesting day by day. After that played some Guilty Gear. Using Eddie in Aracde Mode, I-No is a bitch! Her damage is totally demonic and her moves just plain spell UNFAIR. Grr...

Even me bro is growling about her. Anyways, bro downloaded some game trailers. I watched Fatal Frame, Silent Hill 3 and Resident Evil Outbreak trailers. Fatal Frame was a total scare. It was creepy beyond words man! Scary...

Silent Hill 3 wasn't as bad but it was dark giving it the eerie effect as well. Resident Evil is well, just plain evil with bio mutants creeping all over the place. Loved the FMV trailer though. The graphics were awesome as they were very real. Hopefully one day I'll get to achieve that level of Digital Animation.

To summarise it all, get ready to be scared. Especially with Fatal Frame. X_X

Also, talked to an old friend through sms. Felt good doing so. ^_^

Well, me entry ends here for today. Ja ne!

"There are many angels among us mortals. The most important one is the one that brought us into this world and nurture you until you've grown up. Embrace this angel and tell her how much you love her. Love your mother, the angel of the mortal realm." - Eug -

Konichiwa mina san! Today was an eventful day of so-so proportions. I was going Muhon or solitary!

Woke up early to send me lil bro to tuition. After he was done, picked him up and got ready before having my lunch myself. Also went to the Net and took the colour test. The result is in the entry below. Anyways, for lunch ate at Nando's. Love their chicken and peri-peri sauce! I then went to the LRT station, parked me car and borded the next train towards Pasar Seni.

Is it me or is the world getting more populated with cute girls? Walking around the station I saw several cute ones that made me heart leap up and down. Anyways, went to Kota Raya and met Rampus, Ken Woo, Sunny and Joseph there.

Played several games and exchanged phone numbers with Joseph before going back. Reached home, ate dinner and played some GGX2.

While eating dinner watched an episode of Fruits Basket (sorry Jill! I'll return it to you as soon as possible!). It was the episode about Momiji's mom. When it was done the credits were scrolling up while my tears were flowing down. The episode gave me inspiration to write a poem.

The Regret Of My Lost Angel That Shares My Blood

Curled within my mom's protection,
One with her, a strong connection,
The time came for separation,
A fresh seed of new generation.

Years passed and I grew up,
A thinking person, mind that's sharp,
I stared back at my sleeping mom,
To eternal slumber she had succumb.

Memories played within my head,
Happy ones and those of dread,
The many times when she would smile,
Those were times that were worth while.

And there were moments of despair,
Of many tears and messed up hair,
Problems that were caused by me,
Actions I regret eternally.

I remembered how we used to shout,
The anger flowing all about,
Arguments that we both had share,
Of things in life that were unfair.

I now sit so immersed in thought,
Many regrets I've not forgot,
I close my eyes and can only try,
To hold back the hidden tears I cry.

The actions I wished I hadn't done,
The times I just wanted to run,
Away from thoughts within my head,
Thoughts that leave me cold with dread.

- Eug -

Well, I hope you like it. He he. Tell me what you think about it. By the way, I took a 'Feeling' quiz. Here's me results. I think I like it. It's actually quite accurate. And the character is so serene (I like!).


You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
romantic. You enjoy being creative and don't
mind being alone at times. You have goals, and
know what you want in life... even if they are
a little far fetched.


What feeling do you represent?
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Anyways me entry ends here today. Ja ne!

"Colour, the beauty of it. Humans are like colour, different hues have different characteristics." - Eug -

Konichiwa mina san! This be my colour result from the colour quiz I took. Not exactly what I expected. I was hoping for white actually. But well, who knows? Humans are a mixture of colours I guess. There's a little bit of this characteristic and a little bit of that characteristic in each of us.


What color are you? (Anime Pictures)
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Ja ne!

"Trust, loyalty, tolerance, acceptance, patience, fairness and equal say. The many important factors of being a team." - Eug -

Konichiwa mina san! Today was quite a day, for me, Beano and Jimmy went to see S.W.A.T.. Good movie it was.

Woke up late (cos overslept!)(;P) and quickly rushed to Pyramid. The S.W.A.T. tickets that I had (courtesy of Kok Ming)(thanks Mr. Kok) were free-seating tickets. That meant first come, first get good seats sorta situation. Thank goodness managed to get good middle seats.

Beano came late, causing me to miss some few minutes of the action. BEANO!!! GRR!!!

Anyways, the movie was great. Michelle Rodrigues was really really spunky and not bad looking. Go Michelle! And Samuel L. Jackson was just plain awesome an actor. From the serious Mace Windu of Star Wars to the quirky Hondo of S.W.A.T. with his remarks that puts a smile on all the viewers faces. Sam rocks!

After the movie played some Pump while waiting for Rampus to arrive. Sung changed hairstyle. I was like "Hmmm, he looks familiar. Could it be? Sung? Sung! What happened to your hair?! Whoa!!!" Yep, nearly couldn't recognise him. Anyways, met Micheal there also who played a game before going ice skating.

When Rampus arrived went to eat lunch. Talked about the Alien hierarchy while eating. Imagine lunch at 3! Talk about how time flies when you're playing Pump.

Anyways, after lunch went to Sunny's. Played Deathrow and me, Sunny and Rampus ended up moaning and groaning as we lost to the final team. No!!! After Deathrow played Guilty Gear X2 aka GGX-Square (as I like to call it). My Faust has improved. Yes!!! I also realise that against swift opponents, the ever-knowledge-seeker and dancing-fighter Anji Mito isn't very good a character to use. Sob...he's one of my fave characters (since Rampus, Ken Woo and Beano say Anji is like me). Oh well, you win some you lose some.

Also, found my third trump-card! Millia Rage! She rock too. If only she was as cute as May or Bridget. Sigh.

Well, after the game rushed to send Rampus home before going to dinner. Then came back and played GGX2 story mode. When using Testament, get aspirins ready for the battle with Johnny. He becomes a real pain in the ass. The unfairness of one-strike-deaths caused me to scream "NO WAY! THAT'S CRAP MAN!". But finally managed to defeat him (after about say 6 to 7 deaths) thanks to me bro. Phew!

Well, this is where me entry ends for today. Ja ne!

"Anger is probably one of the worst parasites a human being is born with. It feeds on emotion and causes a tiny destruction within the crevices of your heart and soul. You get hurt from the inside and if uncontrolled it can also lead to injury from the outside as a result from physical fights. Imagine, an enemy from within." - Eug -

Konichiwa mina san! Today, a cloud hangs over my head. Well, during the afternoon that is.

It all started while I was having brunch. I got screwed by me dad for a small little joke I made which caused no harm at all. Geez, talk about the starter of all problems. We had an argument (started by dad himself) which really wasn't needed at all. Stupid is all I can say.

Sigh. Anyways, left the restaurant as soon as I finished me meal so I didn't need to continue staring at dad's face. Headed towards Pyramid to meet Jimmy. Listened to loud music on the way and screamed part of my lungs out in the process.

The parking at Pyramid was packed way pass the brim which didn't contribute at all to making me feel any better. In the end, had to park at the parking lot just behind campus and make my way to the rendezvous area, the Pump machine!

Met Jimmy and Beano there. They were hanging at Rocco Cafe (or was it Rococco?) eating some fries. I joined them, admiring a girl in the ice skating ring. She was REALLY cute. My jaw was hanging and I was practically going ga ga. Sigh...

"I stared at those cute eyes that looked back at me. The smile sent a warm feeling through my skin, making its way into my soul that searched for an angel. An angel without wings, one who walked among mortals. An angel by appearance, but was she an angel by heart? I didn't know and I couldn't think straight. My mind was blinded by her. As a friend once told me in a language so plain and simple...Eug be a sucker for cute girls." - Eug -

Sigh. Anyways, when we were done eating the fries we headed to play Pump. Ah, the Pump machine, my anger therapy machine. We met two other players there, one of whom was a pro. He was awesome man! Anyways, played some games, learned some styles for Funky Tonight's opening and improved on me 7 stand. When all was done, I was fine was again. Ah...the Pump effect. A mystery, and one that will remain an enigma until the end of my time.

Also, met Gerek there. After the game we left. I dropped Gerek at Sunny's before heading home. At home, I had a talk with someone who would listen to my problems. Thank goodness, for I felt much relief that someone else also understood the madness going on in my mind thanks to me dad.

Went out to dinner, feeling rather uneasy at staring at dad's face. When dinner was over went to send me bro to Atria before coming home. Played Jedi Academy. I love the game! Must try dual sabers (aka Amidala's Anakin's sabers) after I finish me current game! I'm currently using double-blade saber (aka Darth Maul's saber). Just discovered some cool moves and when I say cool I mean cool. I should paint my face red and black and name meself Darth Eug or something. ;P

Well, anyways me entry ends here. Me anger is now settled thanks to Pump. Thanks to Andamiro for creating Pump man! Well, ja ne!

"Knowledge is a powerful tool, as powerful as words itself. It is used to spin the world in any direction. It is like Yin and Yang. There's positive knowledge and there's negative knowledge. The knowledge to create and the knowledge to destroy. Seek the positive. Seek the knowledge to create. Create what is positive from learning within the positivity of positive knowledge and avoid the negativity of negative knowledge that leads to destruction." - Eug -

Konichiwa mina san! This entry is actually yesterday's entry (14 / 05 / 2003) since I couldn't gain excess to me com.

Well, woke up late (as usual...). After having some brunch went to Pyramid where I met Beano. We had our games of Pump and I must admit, we both are getting better. Beano has increased his stamina. Congrats! Now there's more carbohydrates within the new and improved Bean! I think my 7 stand is improving to a much higher level (I asked Beano myself for his opinion). Yes! Oh! The beauty of the 7 stand... *tears of joy streaming down my cheeks*

Anyways, after the game went to walk around for a break. Went to IT Walk (wonder if that's the correct name?) and immediately I sensed the vibe, the disturbance, a positive disturbance in the Force.

I leapt! My midi-chlorians (wonder if it's spelled correctly)(if not, gomen!) soared to levels like those of Amidala's Anakin!

It was here! Jedi Knight : Jedi Academy finally arrived! I bought straight away!

After that played Pump again before going back. The jam in the LDP really sucked for it sapped me of my excited Force powers. But! Nevertheless I reached home, installed the game and played away!

So sad that I can't choose the kind of lightsaber yet, just the colour of its blade. Oh well, probably I'll be able to do that later. Can't wait! Can't wait! On the other hand, you can choose how your character will look like based on a few appearance options which is actually kind of cool. I can't seem to find the multiplayer option though. Hopefully there is one.

Also, Happy Birthday to Xin! He! He! May you have happiness always!

Ah, for now my entry ends here. I shall now continue my tireless quest to obtain Jedi Masterhood! Ja ne! And may the Force be with you!

"What was it that her sister did that made Evan get close to her? Why did Evan cared so much for her? Was it the things she had done for him? A million questions swirled in her head but not one answer surfaced." - taken from a story written by Eug -

Konichiwa mina san! Life goes on in the timeline of rest and relaxation that we all learn to know as the holidays. Yesterday's entry could not make it on the desired deadline due to the fact that me dad was using the PC. So it has been postponed to today.

Sigh. Anyways, nothing much happened yesterday anyhow. Went out to Sunny's place for our usual session of gaming. Later in the evening went out with my old friends. Also, did prayers for it was the Hungry Ghost month. As I stared at the flames that consumed the offering-papers many thoughts ran through my mind.

"As I stared into the dancing flames I recalled the many years before where I used to stand right here together with a missing person. I stared at the space where she would've been before moving to my father. Was he thinking the same thing? I didn't know but like me too, he seemed to be deep in thought. All of us were silent but within my mind I heard voices of the past speak to me. I felt the emptiness within my heart, an emptiness that pushed me to call angels so I can be within their warm embrace. My heart shed tears, felt the stab of pain, a pain that no one else knew except me and all divine beings including God." - Eug -

Sigh. Life, oh life.

Anyways!

Now, moving onto today. Today, supposed to wake up early to finish me Fine Art painting but instead overslept (as usual), resulting in a rush-rush situation and a screwing from me dad. The screwing had such a huge impact on me. It caused heat to swell within me and anger to surge through my veins, thus turning me into a demon on the road. Probably a couple of drivers were staring at me as I weaved in and out of traffic.

Anyways, managed to hand in my Fine Art assignment along with my other pencil sketches. After that, played a game of Pump. When I was done I was fine once again. Truly, Pump has such an effect. I then had kebab for lunch before playing Drum Mania and Pump (yes. Again.) Also, met some of my other classmates there who were ice-skating. Karasu! You're a good skater man!

He he. Today was a day I became a celebrity for a teensie itty-bitty while. A tourist (guessing by the fact that she was a European woman, I think) asked me whether she could take a pic of me doing my 7 stand! Oh yeah! Did the 7 stand and saw the flash of the camera fill my view. Ah! The coolness of the 7 stand!

After that went to Beano's place and I immediately fell in love with his home. His home had a beautiful altar where statues of Tibetan Buddhist deities were placed. And his home was filled with the heavenly scent of burning incense. It was like love at first sight and smell! Also met his mom who like my Godmother was a Tibetan Buddhist. We talked (with the help of Beano's translations cos my Chinese was as bad as can be) and I told myself that I MUST bring my Godmom to meet her! They are sure to get along.

"A calming effect sweeps me off my feet. I was intoxicated, floating within the recesses of my relaxed mind. My senses were carressed by that scent, that heavenly scent. I think that all angels have that scent, a scent that made you feel...nice..." - Eug (state of mind upon entering Beano's house) -

Anyways, she gave me a rosary bracelet which was not only beautiful by sight, but by scent as well. The bracelet smelled of incense. Oh, the holiness of the smell, the divinity of it. I love the smell as I love my mother, angels and my future special someone.

We (me, Rampus, Ken Woo and Beano) played Guilty Gear X2 and watched some Pump videos. Watching the videos, we saw one where a little kid was playing. We were like "Whoa! That's good! No! It's awesome! Proof that miracles do exist in this world!".

After that gaming session sent me friends home. I then went home, ate my dinner and went out to Atria to search for my desired target. Jedi Knight : Jedi Academy wasn't out yet! No! Argh! The agony of waiting! Frustration yet again.

Anyways, came home and plopped in front of the com to update me bloggie. By the way, my results (I retook it and answered most truthfully this time) for the Kingdom Hearts quiz.






Take the Kingdom Hearts personality quiz, and visit Castle Diqueria.

Well, my entry ends here. Ja ne!

"The longer you've held on to something, the more precious that thing will be. It is with this grip on that object, nurtured by time that a bond is created. This bond is called attachment." - Eug -

Konichiwa mina san! Today was pretty much the same as any other day during the holidays. Waking up late, having brunch instead of breakfast and lunch and of course, knocking myself silly with entertainment.

Went to Sunny's to play vid games with me bro. Beano and Joseph were there as well. Played from 3 until round 6 to 7. After that went out for dinner then came back.

Meanwhile, while we were at Sunny's, dad and me sis went to Mid Valley instead. Dad lost his handphone (ouch! It was a good phone!) and had to get a new one. Luckily managed to get hold of Maxis and deactivate the number. Sigh...careless as always. He got the same phone that he lost but this particular model had a built in camera.

Anyways, today the air was filled with hype of Kingdom Hearts. I am breathing the same air. Ever since I saw the Kingdom Hearts : Final Mix I became jumpy. It was a cliff-hanger situation. I now definitely have to play Kingdom Hearts 2. The story unfolds in that game. Also, I wanna see my Kairi again! I love her! She's so cute!!!!

Sigh...Beano was right. I am a guy who's a sucker for cute girls.

Also, thank goodness I managed to find my very important letter. *kisses the letter* *holds the letter as well, wanting to hug it but can't for fear it might be crumpled in the process*

Just watched an episode of Steven Spielberg's Taken. Whoa! It was really interesting. The climax approaches. Hopefully won't miss the next episode.

Anyways, that's all for today. Ja ne!